Have you ever felt unnoticed?
In the day-to-day tasks of everyday life, especially in the busyness of being a parent, I have found myself at times wondering if what I do matters. Do I even matter? My thoughts, struggles, frustrations, joys and everything else about me at times feels lost under all the weight of to-do lists, activities and family life. Who am I?
I compare my parenting, my home, my faith, my clothes, my intellect, my writing and just about everything else to everyone else. It. Is. Exhausting. I’ve found myself longing and indeed, hungering, for Jesus to fill me once again with His Word and His truth about me.
As a Christian, my identity is ‘in’ Jesus. When I became a Christian, I was adopted into the family of God (Ephesians 1:5). I am a child of God (John 1:12; 1 John 3:1). That is the truth. Yet, I find myself questioning who am I and the lies ‘worthless’, ‘stupid’, ‘nobody’, ‘alone’, ‘fat’, ‘failure’, ‘lousy parent’, ‘awful writer’ and more try and push their way for centre-stage in my thinking. But God looks at me, He sees me and He loves me, like a loving father looking upon His child.
My son has just started to walk about a week before he turned two. It has felt like a long wait. But to watch him take those first steps unaided filled me with an immeasurable sense of joy that is hard to describe. In a similar way, I think God is looking upon His children in love with arms wide open to receive us. His is a love that surpasses anything we can begin to describe because love is who He is (1 John 4:8, 16).
When we try to understand the love of God, we look to Jesus. God so loved us that He gave us Himself through Jesus that whoever believes in Him will have eternal life (John 3:16). The cross is where God’s love was displayed for the world to see. God stepping into our humanity and experiencing our world in flesh and blood, and that same flesh and blood was given for all of the world to pay the price for the weight of sin. Jesus paid it all in His body so that we could become children of God, reconciled to Him and we can now have a new life.
Whatever lies we believe about ourselves, no matter what we have done, or where we come from, God’s arms are open wide to receive us as a parent opens their arms to beckon a newly-walking toddler. Will we take those steps to come to Him? It’s not about getting our act together. It’s not about being better. It’s about grace.
There’s nothing we can do to ‘get right’ with God. Jesus is the only way and He sees us when we are at our worst and He died for us. He sees us when we think we have it all together and are pretty decent people – and that still wouldn’t make a difference. We still need Jesus. He is holy. He is truth. Without Him, there is darkness, lies and that sense of being cut off from our true Parent. Jesus brings us into His family by the way of the cross. Let’s turn to Him knowing He sees us and He loves us and that there is great rejoicing in heaven when one sinner who turns to Him (Luke 15:7). We’re all sinners. Christ is the Saviour. Come to Him and join the party!